zoeygerlz

2010-08-20T06:19:00.000-07:00

hellos!
dance today was great !
these few practices i tot it was reli good and it reli est me thinking .
the anology of the conductor tht turns away from popularity makes me realise tht not every1 is a leader because to be one, they must aim for the highest level of respect from ppl, even if it means sacrificing some personal stuff .
this training for our syf isnt only for tht.
i blive these stuff will always stay with us till we grow up .

gosh if u are so into her then go talk to her la =.=

2010-08-13T06:04:00.001-07:00

YOG REAL SHOW IS TMR!!!
haha , but i aint feeling anything, weird ...
anyways, hope tmr's show will be a success (:

2010-08-09T06:40:00.000-07:00

you have changed and you did changed.
he didnt lie, you did.
mayb i was shocked , but now, i doubt so.

tht person is mature?
u sure?
his actions dun speak for it .
his actions aint one bit of a mature kid.
the person u talked abt whole day, u sure u noe him ?
if u dont, then why start it ?
no1 at this age is mature, at least no1 can be confirmed to be said to be mature.
and he. is just no whr near "mature" this word.

2010-08-05T04:18:00.000-07:00

gosh how long have i not blogged.
lol anyways.
time is so running in front of me, i reli have to manage my tiem reli well.
and make full use of every second man ...
relax time is lyk no relax time ..
oh well ...
life reli suck ttm now.
family isnt any better.
studies isnt any better.
nth is gonna be better.
i feel lyk shit but life still goes on .
the only way to get out of it is to dance my heart out .

2010-07-17T04:53:00.000-07:00

i wish to have my will back ..
my will to do my best ..

its not the same anymore ..
everyting has changed ..
i wish i cud be just lyk how i put it , happy go lucky, but it just doesnt seem the same ..

2010-07-16T08:11:00.002-07:00

life sux .
lyk seriously .
however , the tot of laos and my clique of fwens always make me stay strong.
i jus hope tht they wont fail me in any ways, cuz they're my pillar of support, the reason of me .

2010-07-09T05:22:00.000-07:00

mr gerard's words today reli set me thinking .
to be a leader is not about popularity , its not about just leading .
before a conductor conducts a band to play the song, he bows.
and after he bows, he turns to conduct the band.
the message here is : to be a leader, in this sense a conductor, one has to turn his back on the crowd, which depicts popularity.
also, to forget about your friends.
as one goes higher, sacrifices and decisions must be made .
some may even end up sacrificing your own relationship with a friend.
"the top is always lonely"
its the saying .
its damn true man..
if you can be a leader tht is popular, means you are also a leader tht is hated as equally as you are famous.
thts life.
the way things are cannot be changed, but you can change the way you think and feel about it.
you can grieve over the fact tht millions of ppl hate you, or u can smile abt the fact tht millions of ppl supports and understands you.
now i know what this means .
dance today was fun . (:

2010-07-04T08:48:00.001-07:00

AHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what a great feeling on stage .
gosh.
we were all damn nervous and i was on the verge on breaking down due to the extreme number of audience and i was super super terrified, i swear i was shivering .
gosh .
but when i was on stage, the anxiety, fear and nervousness tht i felt transformed into an amazing feeling.
one tht makes me doesnt want to stop dancing .
gosh, i just felt lyk performing and performing all night long, even if its 24 hours, i dun seem to mind at all.
it was reli an amazing feeling .
and yes!
dancers did a great job today.
ms raja said for the first time, our "sing the body electric" was in sync!!
we reli rise to the occasion as danceres always do
and luckily, we did not disappoint our seniors.
im so proud of my juniors!! as well my batch (:
the rest of the aesthetic groups were also fantastic, they were amazing (:
it is a very good day and im gonna have a damn good night man!!
chaos!! (:(:

2010-07-03T01:54:00.001-07:00

okay ...
ytd dance was amazing..
we seniors did a motivational talk to the juniors..
actually only some, i didnt.
it was a great talk.
as our instructor didnt come,
we did cleaning up and standardizing.
so i wont say it was successful.
but at least got improve after the juniors heard bella and some seniors talk.
so the energy level was high, but of cuz not as high as it used to be.

today, mr gerard was very disappointed in our performance.
actually i felt it too
no one danced with their full heart, passion and soul, not even me.
i cant feel the feeling of how it used to be during the we are golden concert.
the seniors reli did make a very graet impact.
as the two previous batches were very good at leading us, my batch seem to take it for granted and somehow, we depended on our seniors too much.
now us, as seniors, cant seem to step up and do the job.
none of us have the ability to be inspirational.
my batch is too sensitive over things, a lil bit only and sure got ppl will flare up(what my seniors say)
so yea, i guess thts true ...
i dun think tht my batch is holding out well ...
we are seniors, but we dun seem lyk one.
the lack of discipline is way to ridiculous .
the moment the seniors left, dance discipline,performance,respect, in every aspect, our standard has dropped.
i have no idea how to help to bring it up again.
becuz for all i noe, my batch ppl lyk to take lead, tht somehow, they seem to be fighting over the position to lead, and they somehow forgotten tht we are still a team no matter who leads it.
every1 plays a part in dance .
i did lost the feeling .
i want to get it back, thts the only way for me to dance again.
and i will get it back , today's scolding wasnt just for the sake of it.
i reli hope every1 heard the wake up call.
the seniors left a legacy, i dun think any sec 3s wud want to disappoint the seniors in tmr's performance.
they put in alot of effort, we didnt.
the best we can do is to maintain the standard.
juniors have to buck up , yes.
so does seniors, we must grow up and be mature, including me.
not all things will go our way, we must be a team player and do our best in every performance.
i reli hope to dance with all my heart, passion and soul tmr.
i hope, and i will .
i will feel it again .

2010-06-28T04:56:00.001-07:00

pa..
every1 got limit ..
i only can take this amount of hurt ..

2010-06-18T05:07:00.000-07:00

omg today joke ttm.
went library with bella and feli to do hmwk.
finally i start on some.
then we went tamp aft eating macs at bedok.
then we walk ard , shop and eat and whatever.
then when we enter the lift to go to ground floor, 4 teenage guys also shared the same lift as us.
guy 1: how many people here?
guy 2: 7 people (4guys plus us)
guy 1: he's a person meh? he is bi lei zhen!
bella burst out laughing, i laugh also but i silent laughter.
the 4 guys see bella laugh then all laugh, then felicia laugh at bella, i laughed even harder.
suddenly, every1 in the lift was laughing =.=
then later the 4 guys left the lift, then we three totally burst, laugh lyk mad cow.
sia la, joke ttm , seriously ..
haha but it was really super funny.
esp bella . LOL .

2010-06-16T06:29:00.000-07:00

i cried when i hear this song.
PERFECT
this is for you .

hey dad look at me
think back and talk to me
did i grow up according to plan?
(was ter ever a plan to even allow me to grow up smoothly?)
and do you think im wasting my time doing things i wanna do?
(did you ever support me for dance?)
but it hurts when you disapprove all along.
(do you even care about what i really enjoy doing?)
and now i try hard to make it,
i just want to make you proud.
(i can still rmb how u smiled when u knew i was top in level)
i am never gonna be good enough for you
(but staying top is tough, do you ever understand?)
cant pretend that i am all right
and you cant change me
cause we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
im sorry
i cant be perfect
(no1's perfect)
now its just too late
and we cant go back
(thanks to you)
im sorry
i cant be perfect
i try not to think about the pain i feel inside
did you know you used to be my hero?
(used to be, rmb the bookmark i gave you ? HERO is what is written on it by me)
all the days you spent with me now seem so far away
(how long have u not talked to me for real?)
and it feels like you dont care anymore
(its all about your car, your shit company tht is gonna fall anytime, do u ever care?)
and now i try hard to make it
i just want to make you proud
im never gonna be good enough for you
cant stand another fight
(im tired of all this)
and nothing's all right
(how can things be right if everytime you come home is either yelling at mum or just straight away sleep?)
cause we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
im sorry i cant be perfect
now its just too late
and we cant go back
im sorry
i cant be perfect
nothings gonna change the things that you said
nothings gonna make this right again
please dont turn your back
(you've done it many times)
i cant believe its hard just to talk to you but you dont understand
(and i tot parents are suppose to be the most understanding of all)
cause we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
i am sorry i cant be perfect
now its just too late
and we cant go back
im sorry
i cant be perfect
cause we lost it all
nothing lasts forever
im sorry
i cant be perfect
now its just too late
and we cant go back
im sorry
i cant be perfect

usually people only can rmb the bad times, not the good times.
you know why?
because the good times are far too many, and bad times are only a few, which are strong in the memory.
what about me?
two good times.
first, you helped me set up my sofabed, very grateful.
second, the first time u and mum went to my first concert when i was still a child.
bad times?
too many to even count i guess.
but i rmb a few vividly...
aft you went to the first concert, u never turned up for any other ones, only mum did, and whenever i asked her where were you, she can only tell me that you were busy.
when my results are bad, u only know how to blame mum, habev u ever tried to understand? and my question to you is, does top means forever?
when mum was sick, you werent with her, instead, you call to scold her for not telling you how much the salesman was asking for, question to you is, who do you take mum for? she work for you, not even as a staff but just helping you and u take her for granted.
years ago, you promised me a movie marathon with mum, have u ever brought me to a movie?
.........
thinking all this only made me tear more. dad, spare a tot for me.
i do need care and love, im still a teenage girl with emotions....

2010-06-14T06:11:00.000-07:00

seriously ba zhiu da stamp .
cock eye lor .
what does she have man seriously .
all i can think of is negative stuff .
sorry but thts reli the truth .

im rewatching you're beautiful .
somehow it gave me hope again .
but tht only happens in fairytales doesnt it?

2010-06-13T08:09:00.000-07:00

When i let you go one step further,
my eyes overflow with tears.
When you walk away one step further,
more tears start falling.
As you go away to a place where i cant reach you,
even if i reach out my hand,
i cant catch you,
i can only cry.
What should i do?
What should i do?
You're leaving.
What should i do?
What should i do?
You're leaving me.
I love you.
I love you.
I cry out to you,
but you cant hear me,
because im shouting thru my heart.
All day long i try to erase you, but you appear in my mind again.
All day long i try to say goodbye, but you appear in my mind again.
Although you went to a place where i cant hold you,
even if my hand reaches out for you,
i cant find you,
i can only cry.
What should i do?
What should i do?
I can only see you.
What should i do?
What should i do?
I love you too.
Im sorry.
Im sorry.
Can you hear me?
Please, come back to me.
If it aint you, i cant go on.
What should i do?
What should i do?
i only have you...........
What should i do?
What should i do?
You're leaving.
What should i do?
What should i do?
You're leaving me alone.
I love you.
I love you.
I cry out to you,
but you cant hear me,
because im shouting thru my heart.

2010-06-08T08:54:00.000-07:00

today dance was fun ! (:
haha
felt like blogging all of a sudden (:
okay today was such a peaceful day i wud say.
haha(:

it was reli nice talking to you on msn.
cant blive we talked about ourselves and our ccas . haha (:

2010-06-07T06:40:00.000-07:00

woah.
today outing with pri sch peeps.
alot of them change sia
all taller than me now =.=
not tht they werent last time
but alot taller now
ah!!
anyway..
all still bad kids i guess ?
the boys uh .
lol .
anyway watched killers. and its super duper extremely nice and funny.
haha (:
and ate sakae sushi for dinner! (:
yippie!!

2010-06-04T05:44:00.000-07:00

HELLOS!! BACK FROM LAOS SINCE WED NIGHT BUT WAS TOO TIRED TO BLOG :D
laos was reli fun and it had been an amazing trip there , have no regrets going.
only nice memories (:
first day, we reached the first pri sch and played games with the kids there.
i reli felt a warmth which i realised i forgot the feeling .
it was reli nice.
as if my heart became alive again (:
second day went to to two schools.
first is a pri sch , second is the international sch, panyathip (:
we taught and played games at the first sch and it was reli fun while we performed our dance.
every1 did great (:
panyathip was a reli cool sch, the ppl there were reli friendly and no1 was left out (:
they performed for us dance!! which was reli wow!!
i reli enjoyed thier performance and made two new dancer friends who are only 14 .
one of them is pipop and the other is pui (:
they are reli great dancers, i swear (:
third day, we went to the ambassador .
he was a reli cool person!
he was very informal, most importantly, he told us to go shopping !!!
how cool is tht right!?
i cud never imagine a person with such a high rank wud be so humble and friendly towards normal ranked people.
it was an eye opening for me and i was in awe (:
fourth , fifth and sixth day, my grp did construction , teaching and plantation respectively (:
construction was reli tiring but the tot of it being a sch for the villagers' kids, i realised my tiredness was not a problem at tht point of time.
teaching was tiring as well but i somehow forgotten the tired feeling when i see those smiles from the kids' faces (:
they reli bring warmth to my heart and it reli felt like paradise (:
plantation requires alot of patience as we weed, and plant seed by seed, hole by hole.
it was reli tiring too.
when we left the village on the seventh day, we did a performance and all of us were so relunctant to go.
the village was full of bugs and no air con at all, but the sight of those children and the kind hearted villagers , it was reli worth the stay (:
we went to two caves aft we left the village. it was reli FUN FUN FUN TTM!!
the water cave esp!!
it was reli fun.
when we came out of the water cave, all of us were busy splashing water here and there!! it was reli fun and thrillling!!!!
never tot it cud be tht funny too !! XD
we stayed at a hotel and headed home aft breakfast on the eighth day, which was on wed (:
we reached the airport on wed night and i cried like mad when i saw all my friends (:
reli did missed them like crap !! XD
OCIP reli taught me alot of things and i never ever regretted going (:
i will definitely encourage the next batch of sec 3s to go for this trip and experience what i have experienced :D
CIAO!! XD

2010-05-22T08:00:00.000-07:00

im seriously breaking into pieces.
i duno what to do or who to turn to.
like im alone in a fucking world.
its not tht i dun want to tell any1 but i think they will find me irritating becuz of it.
im bursting...
why am i like this?
i dun have the ans to it myself.
i also duno how i ended up like this.
mayb i know the cause of it, but i just aint admitting it ....

2010-05-08T03:34:00.001-07:00

hellossssssssssssss
mid year haven end............
sian TTM..................
still got sciences and math................
haix.....................
oh well get it done and over with and ............................
WILD TIME IT IS!

2010-04-27T06:28:00.000-07:00

yeaps . 6 days to mid year and i have not started revision.
wowness.
today amath test.
screwed up much?
wowness yanpeng.
officially a mojor loser . =.=

i hate it when u do tht.
like you're mad becuz ppl dun care.
the thing is.
the more u want ppl to care, the more they wont care.
u get it anot?
stupid attention seeker!
argh...

2010-04-20T07:00:00.000-07:00

how long have i not blogged.
wowness .
okay, very busy and very troubled.
over emotions , school and responsibility.
esp for studies .
im like..
gonna die big for mid year.
esp physics and both maths .
F9 is gonna be a new record for me =.=

2010-04-13T04:40:00.000-07:00

temasek freestylers just got cut out of speech day.
reason is very unacceptable so im not gonna say it.
it reli reli seriously pains me when i see my seniors crying and i cant do anything abt it.
wth is wrong with the school?
tell us two days b4 the real thing.
do they expect us to accept it?
seriously, screw them

2010-04-06T05:46:00.001-07:00

okay !
this post is abt someone!!
I HATE U BIATCH!
u are the suckiest and worse person i've ever met.
if u ask me if the one im talking abt here isit you, I WILL TELL YOU YES RIGHT IN YOUR FACE!
u suck man..
seriously..
what do they or we owe u tht u must be such a bimbotic slut?
screw yr own life and leave us out of it and i thank you for it.
so seriously, buzz out.
get out of our lives.

2010-04-03T23:48:00.000-07:00

havent been blogging alot..
and will continue for these few weeks..
oh well..
anyway, CHALET WAS AWESOME TO THE MAX!! :D:D
thanks to those who made an effort to come! XD
i reli had fun man..
and midnight bowling was crazy ...
anyway, 31 MARCH 2010 was an awesome day too!!
:D:D
thanks to those who gave me presents!
reli appreciate it!!
except for some..
whose presents were totally just calling me a smelly pig =.=
U NOE WHO U ARE!!
im having a fever...
has been going on since ytd..
i hope i can get well b4 sch starts tmr.
CIAO!!

2010-03-21T08:16:00.001-07:00

i officially surrender okay?
i surrender.
SURRENDER!
i give up.
totally give up le.
no use talking, i dun want to waste my tears le, im just going to get used to it.
thanks for letting me know.

2010-03-20T09:07:00.003-07:00

i reli want a laptop and a ipod touch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway, simple things like .... u cant even do it..
is it my fault now tht u guys dun feel me in it ?
sorry tht i caused it then.
screwed up and fucked up birthday.
its what im gonna have.

2010-03-19T10:44:00.000-07:00

one CANT be happy forever.
is it true ??
people cry because of others, not becuz of themselves.
then again, y is tht so ?

she was at the train station waiting for her married boyfriend to come and elope with her.
but he didnt turn up.
she cried at the convenience store, and bot a coke .
the employee kept her wallet and coke becuz she forgot to take it with her.
then a man, who just bot a coke, walked out of the store.
she came rushing in and saw tht man holding the coke.
as she tot it was hers that he took, she snatched it and drank it, and gave back an empty can.
later, as she was boarding a bus, she realised she forgot her wallet.
she went back to the store, the employee returned her can of coke and wallet.
then she realised she misunderstood tht guy.

aft a night of tears, she went back to her family , her work, her usual routine again.
ppl called her a slut, for seducing a married guy.

she went to the construction site with her dad and saw the guy tht she misunderstood for taking her coke.
she went to the vending machine, and bot a coke.
as she was abt to take it out, tht guy took the coke, and drank it, and gave her back an empty can.
she laughed.
she followed him all day.
in the end, as it was very late at night, he sent her home.

the next day, she planned to meet him "coincidentally".
as tht guy with his grp of fwens were drinking at a stall, she and her grp of fwens walked past.
his ci ko pek fwens dragged her and the girls to their table.
and she was sitting next to him.
somehow or rather, they held hands under the table.
and then , he offered her a drink.
and said " u drink it, we are on stead. "
she replied "what if i dont?"
he said " then we'll be strangers for life"
she drank it.
just as she fin her last gulp, he kissed her on the lips.

they hang out for weeks and they were a couple.
when she asked him to meet her parents for marriage.
he said no, and told her this .
"i have no rights to marry you. you're a princess, im a beggar. besides, one can never be happy forever"
she cried but still pleaded him to accept it.
the guy was thinking : sorry dear, i dun deserve you as my wife.

she told her dad her boyfriend was an architect.
and when she told her boyfriend tht she said tht, he went to take the architect test and set on being an architect .
he passed the test and took her as his wife.
he went to a land with her. and told her.
" wait a while more, you'll be able to see the sunset here. ive been eyeing on this plot of land for 3 years. just a while more dear , just a while more"
she nodded and smlied back.

as weeks passed, they were as happy as a couple can be.
both giving in to each other and kept giving each other a better life.
she said i love you .
he didnt say back
she asked "why wont u say those three words to me"
he said"DUN BE CHILDISH"

something bad happened, she was diagnosed with early signs of senile delimma.
she cried.
she went home, with a smile on her face.
as they were lying on the sofa, watching tv, she asked him to show her one last time "the grift"
its a trick with cards tht she always get tricked with.
she saw it for the last time, as she cried to the toilet, unnoticed.
she went to work the next day, only to find her ex boyfriend, the married guy, back to the company.
just tht now, he is single, and she's married.
he wanted to go back with her, but she of cuz, refused .
he followed her home.

just as tht was happening, her husband went to the doctor, and asked what's happening to her wife.
he find it fishy and smth must be happening.
the doctor told him the truth.
he found it hard to accept.
and scolded the doctor for telling her everything.

he went home, just to find the door open..
his wife was being hugged by the ex boyfriend.
he, in a fit of anger, bashed him up .
the ex boyfriend said "she missed me, she wants me back "
but of cuz, as her husband alrdy know her disease, he didnt blive what tht guy was saying and told him to scram.

she said " you know abt it alrdy huh?"
he said "what?"
she said "theres a eraser in my memory"
he said"so what? i can be your memory"
they both cried.
she said " dun be silly. you're right, one can never be happy forever, you just proved it"
he said "no, i was wrong, dun do this to me, stay with me"
she said "no, i want a divorce, leave me, please, for i dun wish to hurt you"
he said "by leaving, you're hurtin me"
she said"no, i must do whats best for you"
he said "you have been the best thing in my life, dun leave me "
they closed the door and the next day, as he was abt to leave hse, she called him using her ex boyfriend's name and said i love you.
relucntantly , he said it back , i love you too.
he closed the door and outside,he was in tears.
in alot of tears.
and he left for work.
as she was in the hse, she saw the pictures on the refrigerator, the notes all over the hse, to keep her memory staying.
suddenly, the memory jerked back in her mind.
she burst out in tears, as the memories when they first met at the convenience store came back, flashback were fast..
she took a paper and pen, and in horrible handwriting.
she wrote :
"sorry, im so so sorry are you crying? please dun be. im sorry, please blvie me. i have done nth but hurt you.sorry dear, i didnt mean to hurt you, it wud be the last thing i wud ever do. im so sorry. dear husband, my dear chul , i rmb you. i rmb you.
you will always be in my heart, ive alwaes been thinking of you. im sorry dear, i love you, and its only u tht i love. i may forget, the memories may disapear, but b4 i can even do tht, pls do rmb and always carve this in yr mind tht can rmb the memories, i lvoe you. i cant push you away, becuz u're in my body. i cant forget you, becuz u're a part of me. i lvoe you chul, and thts y i must leave. i will always rmb you , promise me one thing, go to my dad"

as he came back from work and read this, he cried, so painfully.
he went to her dad, jsut to receive a divorce letter. he tore it on the spot.
he went to search for her and he found her in a hospital.
she forgot everything, who he was, who she was, what they were.
he bot her back to the convenience store and renact the scene when they met.
he bot a coke and walked out of the store as she walked in. he opened the can and pointed it to her.
she stepped inside, she scanned thru the place, only to she the doctor, her parents, and his parents all ard her. and as she scanned the last bit, she saw him, her husband.
she rmb him again.
but she know it wouldnt be for long.
she hugged him so tightly.
so tightly.
and they both cried, hugging each other.
she said "sorry, im so sorry , forgive me dear . im sorry"
he said "dun be sily. one CAN be happy forever, arent we the perfect example?"
finally, he said to her , " dear girl , my dear wife, I LOVE YOU "

END

it may be easy for one to say ily.
but it may take alot of time for one to say it too.
but honestly, lets say we're not diagnosed with any disease, with memories in our hearts and minds .
u dun need some1 to tell u i love you to know tht they do.

another thing is to let go of the past.
the girl let go, she was willing to forget her ex bf, the married guy.
and she went along with her life, to find herself in true happiness, the right guy.
tht loved her for her.

2010-03-13T04:43:00.000-08:00

im crying :)
but then i duno y :)
my mum said she didnt scold me becuz of results . she scold me becuz of me going out everyday.
my ques to her is : if i were to get 75%, will she scold me ? :)
one conclusion :
she doesnt understand me, she doesnt know me.
u can sae i very unfair to my mum.
but seriously, think abt it, has she ever been fair to me.
i may have everything i want.
but am i happy in the end ?
money isnt the thing to satisfy me.
she reli doesnt understand me.
when i say my point of view, she avoid it.
dun ask me to be in position.
in her position, she doesnt think of what i saying.
she just keep sticking to her freaking mindset like wtFUCK.

2010-03-12T05:59:00.000-08:00

screw it .
im freaking crying like hell.
64 percent!?
u dare to get a 60 head and come home ?!
my mum said tht to me , in chi.
and then told me to reflect on what i shld be doing instead of everyday stay home in sch for no freaking reason .
im fucking and bladdy mad right now .
does she noe sec 3 level is difficult!?!?!
WTF!!!!!
i want to bladdy slap her face.
and tell it right into her face.
"you so good, u go take test la, y still want to support my education?"
"why not i go commit suicide let u see then u happy isit?"
"if thts the case, I WILL DO IT !"
this is a sucky year i swear .................................................................
my bdae?
y not just screw it up as well?
then i will have nth else to hang on and might as well just be DEAD.

2010-03-09T05:21:00.001-08:00

its not abt the secret tht u guys cant tell u guys get it anot?
GET IT ANOT ?
its leaving me out .
its laughing when im crying .
its not even caring or even bother to care .
its not even making an effort to not put me in a difficult spot .
its for not helping me to get out of my difficult spot .
its ALL THESE LITTLE THINGS.
tht accumulated.
and then burst inside me...
when u said kept in the circle, first reaction wud be wth rite?
i wud be thinking :" wlao, everything also dun want tell me"
then its not the first time .
when this sentence, "everything also dun want to tell me"
appears in my head like.. 3 times...
how u want my confidence as a friend to get on with it?
it will definitely drop rite ..
then what? increase meh?
im human, i have feelings.
and i am sensitive to these kind of things.
mayb the problem lies with me.
sorry tht it started lor.
everything will point back to me.
argh, duno what i saying.
argh forget it.

2010-03-07T05:30:00.000-08:00

tears are dropping profusely while im typing this.
mark this day.7 mar10. its the suckiest day ever.
true, close friends?
sure?
u care abt me ?
sure ?
CLIQUES!
the thing tht makes u break down all the time yea?
i dun see vanessa or tiffany treating me this way.
they dun ever treat me this way.
they tell me everything.
i mean EVERYTHING.
they dun hide it from me just like how i dun hide it from them.
first break point, feli not telling me abt the break up
okay.
ENOUGH.
second break point.
u guys not telling me stuff tht ALL OF U KNOW.
fine, i dun prob.
third and the last break point.
today.
its final.
i can never be yanpeng again.
i trusted .
u guys broke it .
y so cruel to me.
u nv leave any hope for me in this world to survive for.
y me ?!
y ME!?!!?
tears are just fallnig again and again as i typed this.
do u noe how hurt i feel now?
do u noe?
do u noe anything actually?
abt me?
or just for the gossips and FUCKED UP SHIT?
seriously.
actions do speak louder than words.
I SWEAR IT DOES.
seriously, i duno y im crying.
for what?
for myself or for u guys?
or for the heart tht was alrdy broken by u noe who broke again?
TODAY, YEO YAN PENG.... finish the sentence yrself..

2010-03-05T04:48:00.000-08:00

today econs test SUCK
gonna flung it man.
seriously
anyway, today dance was cancelled last min and then me joan colleen went to east ponit to hang out :D
then joan bot two pairs of shoes for the price of 18.
how cheap is tht.
very cheap.
lol
we did window shoe shopping :D
and we met yuan2:D
she is reli getting prettier day by day sia.
haha.
envy!!
:D:D
very happy to see her :D
haha..
i hope tht i can do well for physics this tues!
i dun want to flung it ..
again..

whats with u and those f-ed up bitch?

and you!! its not us tht caused this, its you.

2010-03-02T04:54:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EMERSON!!!

YOU'RE A GREAT BRO AND I WISH ALL THE BEST FOR YOU !!!

2010-03-02T04:09:00.000-08:00

i feel like im being replaced by someone in everyone;s heart.
even with close friends.
like seriously..
im not feeling me..
i feel like im being abandoned la..
i duno y i feeling this way...
ive been so moody these days .. to the point tht i dun even show it anymore..
cuz no 1 cares..
i hate feeling this way..
im so alone..
ah screw it ..

seriously im having alot of problems now but sometimes its like..
when u ask me, i say nth. cuz i duno how to say it.
plus i just ..
dun want to care la aiya!!!!

2010-02-27T08:05:00.000-08:00

wow
slc today
hm..
its not bad actually..
i tot changing group wud be bad but actually quite good
got sherweine, annabelle senior and huiyi :D
haha .
and we went ard singapore today.
its tiring indeed but i must admit, its fun.
haha
then came back to sch and had group shot and then performed!!
haha
i want to clear smth lor.
credits is to every1 who performed.
no1 is ever a black sheep or a troublemaker
every1 performed their best and thts the main aim of this whole thing
and for sec 4s, thanks for letting me have such an honour to perform with u guys .
to my fellow excos, u did yr best, and yr best was great . im proud of every1 of you!
in short, ervery1 played their part and made the dance a great success :D
after tht, other groups performed and they were all very entertaining.
haha:D
then we had a finale boost!!
it was damn noisy and i cud go deaf man..
but still, FUN!!
haha :D:D
i scream until my throat damn pain can..
haha.
aft slc went out to dinner.
and then i laughed until i cried thanks to keith and huiting 's conversation.

keith: from sec 3 or 4 ?
huiting: not sec 5
(not even answering the ques can?)
joan: (being sarcastic) not from sec 1 or 2
im pretty sure not from p1 to p6 too

huiting:who mops the floor u tell me ?
joan and keith: i do .
hui ting: as in use mop to mop leh.
(DUH, then use what?)

still got more.. i forgot liao
i laugh until i drop onto mel's lap.
haha
today is just fun to the max !

2010-02-26T05:29:00.000-08:00

i duno whats wrong with you
u changed so much
its eith er u changed
or u have been putting on an act all along
and all of us are dumb enuf to blive you
i dun want to screw this up
but the tot of u harming my other friend only makes me boil lor
i want to clear this
but im not in the picture
AND U ARE DAMN GOOD AT EXCUSES
so i reckon u will only face the music when u r mature enuf to think
dress so maturely but dun even look like one sensible person
excuses doesnt bring u thru yr life
face the music and consequences of yr actions
stop repeating what we say tht u shldnt and must not do

u stop thinking so highly of yrself
u duno whats the situation is like then anyhow boast
boast more boast more then later make a complete fool out of yrself and i wont pity you, i will be laughing hard.
seriously, SHUT YOUR BIG FAT MOUTH UP AND NO1 WILL SAY U ARE DUMB

2010-02-20T08:16:00.001-08:00

hellos .
today dance concert was ...
TERRIFIC
AWESOME
AMAZING
BESTEST
WONDERFUL
and whatever vocab u can find to describe a good thing.
lol..
anyway, i got screw up abit..
but its okay.
i shld move on and not hang onto it! :D:D
haha :D
i hope tht every1 who went reli enjoyed the show!!
and to mel: its okay tht u didnt go.
i will show u the video okay ?
haha :D:D
only for you.
see i so nice :D
haha.
anyway, thankyou for those who came and those who supported the dance team.
no matter who u r , a stranger or whatever .
temasek freestylers are honoured becuz of the audience and the cheers we get.
thankyou everybody!!
I LIVED THE DANCE, DANCED MY LIFE TODAY .
im proud ,
very proud,
super proud,
TO BE A TEMASEK FREESTYLER! :D:D

2010-02-19T05:38:00.000-08:00

dance concert is TMR!!!!
im damn nervous and damn freaked out..
pressure.. not done.. i am so screwed..
hope for the best for tmr .
go dancers!!

2010-02-12T05:12:00.000-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINES EVERYONE !!!
WOOTS WOOTS !!!
thankyou those who gave me gifts or cards or both!!
really appreciate it alot!
sorry if i didnt manage to give u gift, no money le.
i will make it up though!!
haha:D:D
today dance was...
shant talk abt it..
anyway, classes were boring but one interesting thing i witnessed today and it was damn touching haha.
(joan u noe what i mean rite?)

dun feel my presence at all.
as if im just an idiot , being and looking invisible.
y do i feel so LO compared to last year...
is it just me?

feeling..
is it coming back?
tht sight..
made me trigger..
again..

2010-02-08T05:12:00.000-08:00

hello .
im damn stressed out abt investiture.
i so hope i dun screw it la.
then its like...
wlao...
...............................................................................
i dun want to say anything for tht part ..
anyway, today went discovery centre.
a total waste of my time.
we reached school at abt 7.15??
wtf??
lol..
anyway, went to dinner with tiff, joan, sheryl, bella, jenn and huiting :)
one good thing of the day .
bella pro sia..
go and throw the tray into the bin..
me and huiting like two mad dogs , kept on laughing sia ...
and i almost drop to the ground can..
bella : stop laughing ! go call tht person !
me and huiting laugh even harder.
joan and sheryl come back, they saw two ppl dying of laughter.
got tears come out of my eyes sia .
bella, proness..
they actually made my day, cuz it was reli not very good , quite boring too.
sec 3 life is sucky.
i miss twosix ppl.
i want to go nessa hse like last time, a grp of twosix girls go ter and paly billiard.
apparently, this life has passed by and i can only put them into precious memories ...

2010-02-05T04:38:00.000-08:00

i cant take this anymore.
im crying.
does she know tht.
her scolding makes me more demoralised.
does she know tht.
im crying becuz she doesnt understand.
does she know tht.
im crying harder.
everytime she talks, nth good comes out if it.
so what if she gives me money when i ask for it.
so what.
i dun even feel happy or secured when im at home or with her.
i got a single digit.
it was suppose to be my strongest subject.
i reli feel damn demoralised.
esp aft she shouted at me, again.
isit me or this week just suck like hell.
and the weeks to come will suck too.

im tired.
reli tired.
feel like ending all of this.
really.

2010-02-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

FCUK!!
my mum shouted at me like im some bladdy dog tht needs taming.
FCUK!!
she dun even noe i got so many things going on in sch.
she take it as im playing ?!?!
does she noe abt my concert when i said i want sell her the tickets??
NO.
does she noe abt me getting exco badge??
NO.
how many times have i told her??
at least more than five !!!
ARGH!!!
whats the prob here?
me or her?
wtf !!
I CANNOT TAKE IT !! ARGH!! I WANT TO SCRAEM MY BLADDY LUNGS OUT!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

today was the suckiest day ever!!!!
it was such a bad day!!
lessons werent good and i kena standing outside of class.
dance wasnt good?? i was suffering thru out ..
come home first ting my mum screamed at me.
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SCREW MY LIFE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-30T07:23:00.000-08:00

i set my blog, first line to be happy go lucky..
but when i blog, i always delete tht line ..
i ask myself why now..
but just to come up with no answers ...
im feeling ...
weird..
confused ...
and very very ...
complicated..
argh...
very ...
irritating leh this feeling ..
goodness me..

i feel lost .
in a maze .
trying to find my way out .
y ?
many factors i guess.
too many until i forgot what .

u said tht 5 words.
i read it 5 times.
just to realise.
i want to say those 5 words to you too.

2010-01-30T02:48:00.001-08:00

so much to do .
so little time .
i reli thought i cud handle it .
but it turns out disastrous .
im such a failure as a friend .
sorry .

i duno if u still come here often ..
last time i bet u will come everyday, no doubt.
now, i cant say the same anymore .

2010-01-29T04:13:00.001-08:00

hellos.
today was a damn..
on the spot thinking day ..
wow man.
cant blive i survived ..
anyways, dance was good.
just tht my muscles were aching like shit..
there were two sec threes tht came for audition..
one from 3/3 and another from 3/1 (transfered student)
apparently the girl from 3/1 got some style of her own .
and she dance with attitude(which is good ).
she's fierce competition..
but tht doesnt mean im intimidated ..
what she wanna show, she can bring it on.
did dance for carnival.
its not tht bad man, the moves i meant .
annabelle lee taught us .
sli is gonna be so busy
so lil time and so much to do
gosh, time management skills is mostly needed here..
i hope i can make it thru.
jiayous!!
:D

disappointed in you .
nth else to say to you anymore .

2010-01-26T05:33:00.001-08:00

today had dance !!
was so tiring ..
haha.. as always la!!

seeing those only make me hurt la ...
but somehow just cant stop but keep caring abt it..
no matter how many times i tell myself to not give a freaking damn..

its either you're stupid or you're just trying to get freaking attention.
i reli hate this .
i must act like nth becuz i dun want screw my fwenship with you and then it will all be weird and stuff.
its only all abt yrself..
u complain no one cares, but actually, do u even care for others b4 they can care for you ?
its alwaes u questioning .
y not let ppl talk first b4 u make a F-ing noise?
argh,, seriously.. think of the big picture!!
its much more important than u think it is than yrself .

2010-01-23T22:58:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BELATED SWEET SIXTEEN JENN!!
ytd was such a fun day .
im glad tht jenn had fun :)
we played MRT and obiobi and i kena like siao...
shit man..
anyway, i had a good time, and so did everyone else :D
im so lazy to do my hmwk
tmr got sch ..
im missing pahang ..
haha :D

we alwaes pass by each other like strangers ...
u made me known as a stranger ...

2010-01-22T05:50:00.000-08:00

MY WHOLE BODY AND FACE IS DISFIGURED!!!!
omg...
pahang was a hit man!!
FASTER ONE RAWKS!!! WOOTS!!
haha:D:D
the bat cave SUCKS!!!!!!!!!
argh...
anyway, every grp cheer was GREAT , i blive our batch did reli well :D
hahas:D
okay, im damn tired...
so ...
nights people!! :D:D

2010-01-14T03:44:00.000-08:00

today lessons were boring ...
aft sch went to tamp with a grp of 3/4 peeps ...
and then homed with sheryl

sorry if i crapped and sorry if i sometimes get too into myself ...
it was not easy for me and i noe it wasnt for u too...

2010-01-08T07:55:00.000-08:00

today aft class had sec one orientation event .
i missed dance for orientation practice, although unwilling but i must noe how to see which is more important.
anyway, during debrief, we talked damn long.
talked abt the performances, which was great, according to excos.
but the processes were shitty, wasnt well planned at all.
so i guess we have to buck up on tht.
anyway, i reli have many flaws.
its a heart to heart thing with the sec 4 excos today and erm, everyone were honest with everyone and had clear some doubts.
for me, i am too lazy, tht one i noe la, it leads to me not being able to show leadership in slc dance practices.
i shld have tot of tht, its always impt to always keep TEAM in mind.
as long as team is in, all is fine.
i must work with my grp of CMs.
another thing, smth happened aft debrief but anyway, it was settled, i hope.
peaced.

i feel damn bad, sorry ..
to my excos, thanks for letting me noe, it was reli appreciated.

2010-01-07T06:31:00.000-08:00

today lessons were boring.
usually i will rmb what lesson i have and what i did, even if its boring.
but its just too boring i can only rmb sleeping .
today had practice with cm again.
aft prac went to eat and had heart to heart.

i didnt know u were like tht.
it was damn shocking for me.
quite heartless.
but yr friends still care for you.
one lucky person.
treasure b4 they leave you.
friendship is important.
its not good to keep hurting yr friends' hearts and also, be a friend to them please.

2010-01-05T04:53:00.000-08:00

second day!!
alrdy got hmwk..
haix, expected uh..
anyway, had dance today..
sort of self prac, cuz gerard never come ..
anyway, it was quite fun anyway.
it has been long since i danced so yea..
haha..
aft dance went eastpoint with joan and colleen:)

colleen: shld i tell joan??
yp:ya u shld.
~~~ few seconds later~~~
colleen:wait, tell what uh?
(colleen, u damn blurr!)

yp:whr's bus 5??
joan: somewhere
~~~a few seconds later~~~
joan: UNDER the rainbow
~~~bus 5 came~~~
joan:see, its under the rainbow!
(joan, LAME MUCH)

colleen and joan both damn funny sia.. haha..
but thts y i love them right. haha .

2010-01-01T06:42:00.000-08:00

i have to admit, i hate tht 2010 is here and 2009 is gone ..
twosix, whatever i want to say is alrdy said .
today, feli bdae party, some 2/6 came .
not all.
well, they were busy .
when the guys were playing the staring game, feli said, let them stare, it wud be the last time for twosix .
i will reli reli reli miss them all.......
i cant bear to part..........
but i have no choice ...........
its damn irritating to have this feeling ...............
i fear that YVTF will be too busy for each other...........
i fear that twosix will be too busy to have outing.......
i reli fear .....
i dun want it to happen.
at all.
2010 isnt a year tht i look forward to.
i am afraid of the drama tht will come .
i also scared tht me and a few friends will have major quarrels. ...
things will change, we may say tht it wont , but it may and it may not..
future is unpredictable..
thts y we shld also treasure every single day, hour, second.
with anyone tht u are with..
2009 is fun.. reli..
with such a great and totalyl awesome rawker class, its hard to not be ..
2010 will definitely have new troubles, and more struggles b/w everything ..
however, i will still do my best and try to make 2010 a good year too .

2009-12-31T07:03:00.000-08:00

TWOSIXROCKERS WOOHOO!!!
VANESSA(twinneh sister,best of best!)
hey baby! thanks for everything.
what i want to say, alrdy say in tht letter. but here, i jsut want to say thankyou again.
my thanks to u will nv end.
u have been a huge part of my life. my mum once said, vanessa is a friend that u will never lose.
i asked y, she said, only friends who will force u to read books and do hmwk are true fwens:D
i am very bad at having the will to do hmwk or read(cuz i hate reading u noe tht), but nevertheless, u still motivate me, bringing me to greater heights. I LOVE YOU BABE!
i do want to say a huge SORRY if our results ever resulted in yr parents' unhappiness towards you. i feel reli guilty and i reli hope tht u will forgive me for tht. our lives past by each other and im sure ter's a reason for it. you're my star, the one shining brightly out there, bringing me hope.
THANKYOU FOR EVERYTHING! :D

TIFFANY(laughing prob sister, is it settled? :P)
hey sweety! you are one of a kind man, always the one making me laugh and alwaes the one coming up with retarded stuff. haha. thanks babe for everything. u were alwaes there when im down . and u are alwaes the one who will get things going. what i want to tell u is alrdy been said in the letter, but here, i also want to thank you. my thanks to you will also nv end . one thing, i want to say SORRY too. when i was angry, i hurt you b4. im sorry for tht. u noe me uh, anger get the better of me de, i very hot temper de. but u nv blamed me b4. i love you man . haha. im glad tht next year we are in the same class , i hope to alwaes be yr sister, and a very good one too. thanks for understanding . I LOVE YOU BABE!
THANKYOU FOR YOUR KINDHEARTEDNESS! :D

FELICIA(my cheerful lil sister!)
HEY FEDI! hahaha.. u have been teased until u stead sia.. and im proud of you !! haha :D anyway, thans for yr overwhelming concern towards me . it made me felt warmth and definitely brought a smile across my face. you're alwaes the one with no worries, happy go lucky, get on with life. i admire yr character for tht and i reli hope u will stay tht way dear, happy and alwaes being cheerful . I LOVE YOU BABE! thanks for everything , esp tht time when i had a sorethroat, yr maid made honey water for me. reli appreciate tht. thankyou very much . SORRY for not listening . sometimes i get too overwhelmed until i cant get a thing in my head, same case for my temper .
THANKYOU FOR YOUR CONCERN! :D

ANNABELLA(my mad korean fan sister!)
hey latte! you are not one of my YVTF. but u are also damn close to me as they are. to me, u are alrdy in the YVTF. i love you man. admire yr hardcore character, not happy, say out loud. happy, also say out loud until crazy. you are one great friend man. i know u will nv ever betray me, becuz i know u well enuf to determine tht u will alwaes be in my heart forever. i hope to walk the path beside you, as a good friend, always. thankyou for yr concern, esp tht time, u pulled me out of the road(u noe what im saying). SORRY for making u cry at pizzahut u feel so strong for yr bestie, i get tht. i will alwaes rmb yr kindness towards me and alwaes place a thankyou in my heart.
THANKYOU FOR YOUR CARE! :D

JENNIFER(the perfect girlfriend)
hey pretty! you are pretty, dun deny it hor! haha. anyway, thanks for everything, i reli appreciate yr help and alwaes being there too . SORRY if i have been bad to you b4 or even say anything rude, i say a sorry to you .
THANKS FOR YOUR FORGIVING HEART! :D

CALEB(funny funny friend!)
hey man! thanks for everything u have done for me. and alwaes listening to my complaints and giving me advice too. hope u will have a great year and SORRY for anything tht i have done tht has hurt you. its only right to move on and thanks .
THANKS FOR YOUR CARE! :D

EMERSON(best brother i can ever have!)
hey King! wow, alot of thanks to you man . firstly, thanks for yr starbucks!! i will alwaes rmb this thing tht u owe me and i will bring it with me thru 2010, it will remind me yr kindness and alwaes, like starbucks, my nice brother. you once told me, my parents will find my heart for dancing as long as i perservere and show tht i can . and make them feel my passion . thanks for yr enouragement. i relli did try harder . thanks for alwaes being there, bringing my out of my darkest times. you are my guardian angel, alwaes being there when i needed some1 and alwaes guiding me to the right route. i hope u will never stop , and keep giving me yr guidance.
THANKS FOR YOUR GUIDANCE! :D

____________________________________________________________________
DAMN SPECIAL GROUP OF FAMILY!!
JOAN!
hey babe! thanks for your encouragement and always lending me a shoulder to cry and always giving me advices when im at a lost . thanks for being a real friend, giving me yr all, doing yr best for me . thanks for everything and i will alwaes rmb yr kindness and care. we will alwaes be best friend forever and i blive tht u will scale to greater heights . blvie in yrself and always be yr best! you are one in a million and i hope i will nv lose you . i love you dear!!
THANKS FOR EVERYTHING! you will alwaes be in my heart, no matter whr u go:D

COLLEEN!
BABYBABY!! heyhey!! thanks for yr retarded and laughing moments with me!! hahaha!! you are one funny girl man, toking to u on msn, i will alwaes laugh one. we wasted enuf money on markers and other stuff alrdy rite??!! haha:D:D i love you dear! thanks for yr advices too when i was lost and being there for me. you were never against me, and alwaes giving me support in whatever my decision is. thanks for yr care, concern and kindness towards me dear. we will always be best friends forever and i blvie tht u and i , will remain for life!
THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT TOWARDS ME AND YOUR CARE! :D

XAVIER!
DUMBDUMB!! thanks for yr funny funny times . and alwaes making me laugh man!! i reli appreciate it and hope u will alwaes be tht funny!! hahaha:D:D u and emer are brothers(born to bully me de) anyway, thanks for making me laugh until i stomachache, go home also still laughing. haah:D:D
THANKS FOR YOUR JOKES!!

KEITH!
HEY MAN!! u are one great person man. thanks for giving me encouragement and also, helping me in every way and in the best tht u can do for me! :D also, thanks for being the gaypartner of xav, also making me laugh like mad!! haha! :D
THANKS FOR YOUR CARE!

2009-12-29T02:59:00.000-08:00

today had cm slc dance practice and orientation practice.
didnt really practiced orientation though, so sorry.
anyway, today can say fun and tiring .
fun becuz the dance is getting better, i hope everyone will go home and practice their dance steps.
tiring becuz its dance..
anyway, had brunch at pizzahut and its damn joke..
serious..
haix..
i duno if i offended ppl anyway..
jessica! i need u man.. really do..
oh well, hope u having fun there anyway:D

sorry ...

2009-12-28T04:52:00.000-08:00

to YOU man..
u duno me at all.
dun come and say what im this im tht.
shut yr crap up.
my life has nth to do with you and it will never be .
judging me is not what u shld or can do.
gthooml.

2009-12-21T07:40:00.001-08:00

hellos
today is supposedly not a very good day..
i feel damn far from my close fwens and i feel tht im a bad person..
dancing..
its not bad.
really .
not becuz imma dancer.
but because it teaches life.
but it doesnt get to some ppl's head i guess.
oh well..
i hope i dun have to think so much abt ppl who doesnt appreciate dance.
dance is my life.
it doesnt matter if u dun like dance.
the thing tht matters are my fwens who are there for me, knows me, and appreciates dance .

2009-12-20T05:41:00.000-08:00

okay im crapping with joan ...
and its damn LAME..

Jo:] says:
*haha cos u look super mature when you wear dresses!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*lol! really uh
*sad

Jo:] says:
*haha why sad??

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*cuz i look old!

Jo:] says:
*lol!
*nonono
*not mature old
*but mature sohpisticated!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*whats sophis...
*what's *

Jo:] says:
*eh.. dunno how to explain..
*erm..
*like.. very modern, glamorous

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*lol! right... im not sophis...

Jo:] says:
*haha u are!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*im not! u talking crap siol!
*haha

Jo:] says:
*haha
*nono is u talking bullcrap

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*zzzzzz u talking shit crap
*haha

Jo:] says:
*haha nono
*you talking sheep crap

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*lol!!! u talking fish crap!
*haha

Jo:] says:
*nono!!!
*you talk cow crap!!
*cow crap is cooler!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*u talking pig crap. PIG IS WAY COOLER

Jo:] says:
*lol!!
*that's true.. pigs can fly..
*but nono!!!!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*haha!! yea!!

Jo:] says:
*that is super chicken crap!!
*chicken is cooler and tastier!!!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*omg.i laughing like mad alrdy. haha!
*nono!!
*its turkey crap!! its so much more high class!!

Jo:] says:
*lol!
*u think thanksgiving ah??
*fail fail fail!!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*lol!!! no its not fail okay!!!

Jo:] says:
*this is oyster crap!!
*i dunno why i say oyster
*lol
*i can't think of anything else right now

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*haha!!! cute sia!!!
*omg this is damn lame this conver.

Jo:] says:
*oh i know!!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*im so posting on blog

Jo:] says:
*dinosaur crap
*yr crap so huge sia!!
*lol
*hahaha
*this is super lame
*:P

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*right might as well say universal crap
*haha

Jo:] says:
*haha aw man.. that means the universe will be influenced by yr crap
*nono cannot!!!

~¥aN PènΩ~ says:
*lol!!! u lame la!!! its yr crap tht is bad influence okay!!

Jo:] says:
*haha whatever!!!
*u better not post about this ah!!
*good u didn't post about the BATA incident
*good good

2009-12-19T03:46:00.001-08:00

ytd was fun fun and FUN!!
lol i very lazy to say what happen so yea..
haha..
today is so sian..
haix..
cannot go out today and tmr..
sian until cannot sian liaox..
anyway,
to someone out there tht i actually bother to say this..
get the hell out of my life..
u almost forcing me to change my number and make it private so tht ppl like u can never ever get to know my number..
screw off and get a life..

2009-12-16T07:02:00.000-08:00

today went tamp to eat dinner and buy camera.
question:
does love at first sight really exist?
lol.
i have no idea.
somehow i hope it does.
somehow i hope it doesnt.
anyway, tmr got speech.
nervous much.
anyway, hope to do my best :D

2009-12-15T06:11:00.001-08:00

sucker sucker sucker!!
i nv expect u to do tht..
right..
call yrself my friend .
aft a long while.
u pretend u duno me at all.
i said hi, u turned yr back.
you're out to embarass me isit?
i tot u didnt do it on purpose but it turn out to be so.
thanks for letting me know..
letting me know tht u aint worth to be my friend.

cold dry lonely feeling..
i hate this man..
y must it always be this way..
i feel it almost everyday..
just a matter of what time..

2009-12-14T04:59:00.001-08:00

today went sch for slc dance prac.
it was okay i guess.
i hope thurs will be better, jsut tht thurs got speech =.=
pathetic..
DING DONG!!
I DUN OWE YOU ANY SHIRT!!!
argh..
you suck sia..
BLEH!!
anyway, today the scp were playing slap games .
i see also can feel the pain sia..
esp when joan kena ..
haha..
woots, tmr going back scc.
hope it wud be good :D

2009-12-13T06:06:00.000-08:00

today went vivo with mum.
bot bags, clothes, accesories and so on ..
today quarreled with mum..
never once i went shopping with her was pleasant lor ..

hm..
i hate this feeling of mine..
its so..
wrong..
go away go away !!
i dun like it.
argh..

2009-12-11T06:37:00.000-08:00

im damn bad mood today..
quarreled with mum and dad..
they everything also not happy with me sia..
wth...
screw it ..
unreasonable..
argh!!!
hope to have twosix outing soon ...

2009-12-09T05:24:00.000-08:00

back from camp (:
it was marvellously fun! (:
alumni and graduating sec 4s came also (:
firstday, it was meeting meeting meeting.
meeting until damn siannnnnn..
but after tht went to bfc and eat dinner and came back for confidence walk (:
pathetically, no night walk . sian boh.
anyway, it was also quite scary uh .
lol .
second day went to ecp to play :D
we played caps ball in the sea .
and then ate bbq for dinner.
er..
some sec 2s performed for the seniors, singing two songs.
with you and you belong with me (:
aft tht, stephanie, the sec 4 pres of cm played the guitar and we all started to singalong (:
and then got s short chitchat with excos and mr toh.
and ive been teaching dance for two nights and ytd aft dance i played cards with the alumni and seniors till 9 .
i didnt have any sleep ytd so yea, ciao.

2009-12-06T05:10:00.000-08:00

ytd woke up ard 12 ..
went to eat the big prawn noodle..
and then went shopping..
which is totally unplanned..
just becuz dun want go home..
anyway, spent quite alot of money ytd..
buying shoe, accesories, tees and bottoms..

today went cousin house.
woke up at 1 ..
and mum was rushing me to get ready in half hour..
and then at cousin house, damn it man..
my aunt came back from bangkok and freakingly bot so many cheap like siao stuff.
i almost went crazy seeing wad she bot..
shoes bags tees bottoms dresses rings necklaces wallet bracelet..
u name it, she has it.
she bot me a shoe and skirt..
apparently she bot alot of cheap stuff and its so freakin cheap tht i want to go there with thousand bucks,
i can bring duno how many luggages full of cheap stuff home..
wah..
lol..
okay..
anyway, homed ard 9
tmr got camp..
must rest early..
haha..

2009-12-03T03:58:00.000-08:00

today went to watch new moon:)
its very nice.
and the werewolves are scary man.
jacob has 8 packs man.
okay main thing..
er, met tiffy at macs, she got laughing problem.
reli, trust me.
and then we met feli at the platform.
and mrt travels to yr .. right..
okay continuing..
er.. met ding at bugis street entrance.
okay, not reli at the entrance cuz we three were halt by a person tht wants us to donate a minimum of 10 bucks.
each of us gave 2 bucks but ding gave 4 .
we went to the tickets next and then went to eat at "jacks place" .
its so not jacks place, so freaking different, i want a coke with no lemon one okay.
anyway, tiffy got laughing problem all the way ..
and feli kept helping her attack me, like duh, twinneh..
aft eating, we went loitering ard like no one's buisness and finally it was 3.40pm.
we from bugis street, walk to cinema and bot drinks.
we were on time :D
haha.
during the movie, ding got bladder prob, so he has to go toilet twice.
the second time, he step on my bag and kick my leg(which is the reason y i dun owe u anything)
and then actually when he come back i want to trip him, but he smart, go from the other way.
not so smart, its the longer way=.=
aft movie, damn cold siol.
went to toilet and then mrted home.
on the mrt, tiffy was giving a lesson.
telling us y when playing scissors paper stone, she always lose becuz she always choose paper.
firstly, its easier, no pressure.
scissors must noe how to coordinate yr fingers, pointing only two out.
stone must clench tightly, need more energy.
so the conclusion is tht paper is the easiest to show .
and on the mrt, she jsut cant stop being retarded, like its in her you know..
i laugh non stop siol.
cannot control.
when tiffy left, ding started to quarrel with me.
he got a very BIG problem.
say i owe him shirt.
i wasnt refering to tht okay dingdong.
and u step on my bag and kick my leg not enuf , still want a shirt.
what are you siol.
not man not gay not girl .
last statement, I DUN OWE YOU ANYTHING.
BLEH

2009-12-02T04:16:00.000-08:00

okay today another slackish day tht i lived thru .
woke at 3pm ..
damn late sia ..
then ard 6 to 7 went to bedok to eat macs with my mum ...
and i met jenn and belle..
haha..
both wearing dress and both sweating like duno wad..
cuz they were rushing..
haha..
and jenn cabbed 3 times..
which is wow ..
haha..
and then sheryl came and they went to sch for sec 4 gradnite..
hope the scp are havin fun tonight..
tmr going watch new moon..
hope its gonna be good ..

2009-12-01T08:57:00.000-08:00

TIFFY'S BACK!!!!
WOOTS~~!!~~!!
hahahax.
i missed her like crap and now shes back :D
she had fun in osaka and tokyo .
haha .
i havent go out for a very long time.
lets see, sat until now ba,, which is.. tues ..
wow.
haha:D
anyway,
i got go buy shoe uh .
but not say reli go out .
cuz i had been home for more than 24 hours for these four days .
i actually am craving for starbucks right now.
so gonna get one tmr .
oh wait, emerson owes me .
but wth, he duno when then will return..
haix..
haha.. jkjk..

all i want is trust from you.
i didnt freaking do anything wrong.
cant u trust me.
jsut becuz of this, i have to live under inspections everyday isit??
is this wad u want?
im telling u , i wont let u have yr way.
u oldfashion and duno wth you are doing yrself .
stop telling me stuff tht is not me!!
y care wad news is saying??
im not those girls on the streets tht u find drinking with some idiots.
im not!
stop being so annoying!!
i reli had enuf of u.
my mum was like tht under you.
antisocial and totally no life.
do u think im her?
she resigned to fate cuz she has no choice.
she still has me .
but me?
im young and i can do what i deem fit.
do u think i will give u yr way just like wad my mum did!?
dream yr fat ass dream.
im not going to be a prisoner.
and definitely.
not going to let this go.

2009-11-28T04:44:00.000-08:00

I MISS TIFFY!
anyways!!!!
today went to emer's church, shekinah harvest church.
wow man.
its very vibrant and enjoyable .
haha .
the atmosphere is so high but also, peaceful and heartfelt .
warmth .

unfailing love
so unreserved
you gave yourself on calvary
and now i stand
forever free
my saviour rescued me
:)

haha i love this song.
whne in deep thinking.
i tot abt my family, friends and school.
abt my attitude towards some ppl.
last time tot they deserve this shit.
but then again y i giving them this kind of thing.
they may be against me but i dun have to be against them too to gain my freedom.
anyway, this is one great experience and i hope i can go back .
which is hard cuz my parents .....
anyway, it was fun today :D

2009-11-27T08:22:00.000-08:00

gonna make this as short as possible, tired.
talking to tiff for tht one sec does make a diff, i miss her!!
she go for so long le sia.
i miss her like crap.
oh well, think positive, shes coming back soon.
anyway, main point.

today went to julia hse, she had a bdae party:D
HAPPY BDAE JULIA!! :D:D
it was super duper fun.
although i didnt noe alot of ppl there.
just crapped here and ter and play along lo.
haha.
so i went joan hse first then we went east point and then went to julia hse.
first to reach:D
then jamie and joal came.
and wanted to play rock band but then duno how control and by then, lixuan huiying keith come alrdy.
so we went down to carry bbq stuff.
then bbqed.
haha.
thebn all slowly stroll in ..
and when everyone was present, we sang bdae song and julia cut the cake and then we threw julia in the pool!
then slowly, everyone kena pushed into the water.
i was so not prepared and didnt planned to get wet at all cuz i didnt bring extra clothes.
i tot if my handfone on hand can alrdy, i will be save.
but then also kena throw into the pool, they somehow managed to take off my shoe and snatch my fone too.
then seriously, everyone tht was ter, was wet.
why?
cuz it was sosososo like a pool fight..
haha..
i get out of water, the next second kena push in again.
same thing happen over again and again .
but i cannot get wet due to some reasons.
but alrdy wet so in the end, did jumps and play tagpartner game..
haha.
damn fun.
haha.
aft tht, we all went up to shower and clean up and all went home :D
my parents fetch joan and lixuan home.
and during the journey, our hair was like mad crazy, then nv tie somemore, then lixuan take picture.
haha.
damn mad .
i reach at ard 11 .
then bathed, ate, and then here i am
haha
okay im very tired ..
so ya..
oh and one more thing, i got cut on my face!
damn it.
okay ciao

2009-11-25T04:52:00.000-08:00

tuhdae went to nessa hse to have a good run .
js feli went to.
it was relaxing i must sae .
nth to please and nth to catch up with.
haha.
i hope to go and work out more and train stamina enuf for a onehour dance .
aft her hse, went to eat with my parents as tuhdae is my dad's bdae .
went to eat sakae at east coast and homed early.
today i was out all day but it was very peaceful ba, i wasnt too caught up or too hyper for anything.
i like this kind of feeling i guess.
haha :D

2009-11-23T06:43:00.000-08:00

tuhdae went out with joan barn keith and xav.
me and joan practically wore the same outfit, without planning it ourselves.
wowness boh.
and her voice is just so sexaye.
haha.
both wore bf tee and black bottoms .
haha.
me and joan ate at macs and then all of us went to library.
did maths and crapped.
xav injuried me and keith taught me math .
haha.
aft like .. 2 or 3hours.
i fin math!
haha and we went to a hawker centre to eat .
and crapped abt 1 hour or so then went joan's hse aft getting my dad's card.
and then at joan's hse also crapped la .
wlao, i whole day crap here and there.
thanks to this grp of fwens .
haha.
anyway, homed ard 9.30 and here i am!
:D LOL :D

2009-11-21T23:54:00.000-08:00

today was damn boliao.
nth to do at all.
okay, got hmwk la.
but wth, pls lo, who will do hmwk ....
lol.
okay damn slackish now man .
im damn bad now .
shitty crappy goodness..
oh well, try to make it better.
hope it will be better . :D

2009-11-21T04:55:00.000-08:00

today was open house.
sorta screwed up my dance performance!!
why?!!?
becuz of my fraeking slippery jazz shoe darn it!
keep slippin and make me cannot come up and cannot kick high.
wtf .
nvm, forget it.
and had dance practice aft open house =.=
so tired alrdy by then.
dance had two perfomances but each person only performed once becuz it was split into two.
dance ended ard 2 plus and at tht time, chaos again, everyone searching for their stuff and all kena chased out to pack our stuff.
get well soon joan!
your fever aint a small thingy .
tamp-ed aft dance and homed aft tamp.

2009-11-20T03:30:00.000-08:00

hellos :D
ytd was class chalet!!
wootsiie~~~!!!
we met at pasir ris at 9.15 ..
okay the meeting time was 9.15, i arrived ard 10am.
haha .
then went cheers to get the stuff and yea ..
head to chalet.
haha.
playeed double wacko!!
damn fun man.
nessa and i GOOD!!
haha.
and played truth or dare , dare or double dare, truth or dare or double dare.
haha.
feli and ding had some "cool action" LIVE.
haha :D
mrs soh and her husband also had a small part :D
ard 4.30, emer suggested mud games.
although it was drizzling, but we still went ahead, since alrdy wet and cold, might as well get dirty .
haha .
so we used the canvas and emer poured mud water and wadeva nonsense he can find .
then we have to crawl over to get the waterbombs, and crawl back and run to end of line and throw at one person,
the person tht we throw at tht is the wetest, is the winner team.
then loser team must go in the canvas and kena mud from head to toe.
but in the end, both teams went in.
and emerson threw wadeva crap again and added more mudwater and cover us up.
he ownself nv go and do himself walao.
anyway, aft the game, we went to swim!!
b4 tht obv got go shower and wash off the mud, and i fell on my butt in the toilet =.=
then went to swim.
then later nessa fell her butt on the ground too.
haha.
twinnehs in action.
LOL
then later msoh came.
and then went back chalet and her husband was so kind, to cook for us .
cuz it was raining, no bbq.
but it was still fun haha:D
some showered, some ate, some watch tv and go crazy ( u noe who u are :D)
and then later msoh played truth or dare, dare or double dare with us :D:D
haha:D
all truth questions all she ask and wowness.
she damn pro can.
noe whats in and whats out .
haha.
eh,, then played ball games and then msoh went home.
then went to room one to play cards and some of us slept
i slept at ard 2 plus .cuz today got dance.
haha.
the girls and guys, morning 7am then sleep, by tht time, i was abt to go out alrdy.
haha
actually the girls more hiong, nessa and bella poh last to sleep, and last to come back from the beach.
haha.
my post got alot of missing info but i guess u have to see some other twosixrocker blog to noe more detailed one ba, mine isnt cuz im tired sia.

okay, lets try to make it short.
dance today was tiring and got alot of scoldings from gerrad, he today not good mood uh.
keep scolding us .
lol.
did open house and did a few concert item with costumes.
aft dance, it was chaos.
all the clothes all everywhere, ppl have to find space to sit to pack their stuff and i have to search for my stuff.
lol.
then aft dance went east point to eat LJ with joan colleen and yuan2:D
hahahax..
and then went to meet my mum and homed:D

twosix had so many bondin games until at 11 plus, we bond until nth more to bond alrdy .
we all sit ter, play games and laugh at a drunken .
number 11 .
lol.
actually cant stay , but then later beg until can stay, haha:D
but no diff uh, i still have to wake up early .
haha.

these two days were fun :D
tmr is open house and i hope it wud be good too.
although i cant perform with my dancers besties.
but i noe tht we will all do our best for tmr :D

actually i forget alrdy.
no point asking anymore.
i only noe its last year.
i duno when anymore.
slowly slowly.
i forgetting stuff alrdy.
mayb its me changing.
but i cant stop tht change.
i will only try not to change,
or change for the better.
i noe my attitude towards her is bad.
thanks u two, i noe i must try harder to treat her better

2009-11-18T04:24:00.000-08:00

im so tired .
nth much to post .
goodness .

2009-11-17T05:00:00.000-08:00

HELLOS!!
today had dance.
tired much.
alot of bladdy floor work.
haix..
oh well, lol .
blood on the dance floor, as expected, half the song is on the floor.
lol.
omgosh man!
YUANYUAN IS SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL!!
omg sia.
i saw her i was like, stunned .
shes such an angel.
omgosh.
haha.
and her hair is damn pretty man .
omg.
her dress, wowness .
her heels! classy man!!
haha:D:D
happy for her and i hope she enjoy her grad nite :D

2009-11-13T05:04:00.000-08:00

"i was shocked to see her like that, i was angry becuz other person was by her and i felt hurt after seeing that. Since it hurts, i lost."
to be shock then angry then hurt, its the worse feeling ever.
bt if becuz of tht u find yr love, i guess its worth it haha .
taekyung and gominam getting it right.
the show getting interesting huh..

anyway, today had dance:D
seniors came back!!
YUANYUAN, SYAFIQ, KHAIQAL, HUIYING, INNYEE!!
hehe:D
so happy to see them man!
haha:D
and it was definitely fun to dance with them again.
i can feel the strong spirit again.
"GO DANCERS!!"
HAHA!!
:D:D:D:D

2009-11-12T04:43:00.000-08:00

hellos .
today went out with yuan joan col.
went to orchard then bugis.
walk until tired sia.
lol.
bot shades and bftee.
joan spent 56 bucks .
power .
but all damn cheap lo.
bugis wad .
haha.
just watched ep 11 of you're beautiful.
damn nice.
esp last part .
haha .
tmr dance, i hope i dun die tmr

2009-11-11T04:08:00.001-08:00

today was good:)
went out with the girls .
talked abt alot of stuff, most of it are conflicts tht may happen next year .
wads the definition of a bitch?
girls with attitude?
girls tht are better than you?
girls u feel inferior to?
if thts the ans, the world is full of bitches.
bitch wont like a bitch.
if they are fwens, they will be frenemies.
bt then again, whos to judge if a bitch is a bitch.
many ppl sae 3/4 2010 will be bonded.
bt the talk with the girls, its true tht internal conflicts may occur and somehow or rather, things change becuz of power.
power isnt everything.
its true u will gain respect but if u dun deserve tht respect, forget it
mayb this is y i reli want to stay with twosix.
no conflicts, no pressure, just all jokers and peace :D

2009-11-10T03:44:00.000-08:00

today dance was super tiring.
tribute, graduation with encore can die alrdy.
i duno how to survive pressure, practice,audition, hero and bowing sequence.
all of this in one shot.
its the real deal man.
one hour of dance nonstop.
lol.
i still hope i can stay for chalet.
hope my dad wud allow,
anyway, aft dance went to siglap to eat then went eastpoint to walkwalk.
thurs going out with yuan:D
so looking forward to it :D

2009-11-08T11:58:00.001-08:00

wud u go out with someone u dun like just to keep a secret for tht person u like ?
thts very noble.
but tht person u like, tht likes u too, doesnt knows tht you're helping him/her keep tht secret and gets hurt by your actions of going out with some other person.
its complicated man.
but tae kyung did the right thing i guess.
to save her life.
im imagining myself in her position, wud i feel tht heart breaking pain too.
and if i was taekyung, wud i be tht noble too.

2009-11-08T05:10:00.000-08:00

omfreak.
having major headache now.
crap man.
okay, today nth much uh lol.
ytd was better..
alot of wow-ing statement .
and xav is tht free to count 11 of it, i dun even notice la wth.
joany, nice name u given him man.
shld add on.
until we must actually memorise it to call him.

2009-11-07T05:30:00.000-08:00

WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW!!!!!
today is the crappiest but funniest day ever~!!
lets see wad happened.
first, i met joan and xav at kfc BUT we didnt eat at kfc, we ate a long john's instead :D
then later we went from first level to i think 4th or 5th level to buy joan's correction tape.
then we went all the way down again to get two free ice cream:D
then we went all the way up, whr all the tuition centres were, to stand and eat ice cream.
WOW rite? like omg, we have to go up all the way to stand and eat, like other levels cannot .
okay, then joan has to painfully throw her free double scoop icecream becuz we were all full.
then we went to bugis, went all the way up ..
and then..
"OH! i just rmbed, the place to buy ticket is downstairs!"
"ohya!"
LOL!
then we went all the way down again..
buy tickets and done, and asked the lady how to get to national library..
then we went all the way to level 5, using escalator, to go to study lounge, just to find "empty" seats.
then we went up to level 7, escalatored, and then tht lady said, " sorry, u cant bring your bags in"
WOW! we were stopped to go in to the reference place becuz of this NO BAGS POLICY!
then okay, we escalatored to level 8, thn found lockers to put our bags..
then me and joan placed our bags in the lockers, my key was stucked.
then nvm.
tht person dun even allow a bag with only one piece of paper, so xav has to palce his bag in the locker too.
NVM, then joan kena stop by tht lady, " sorry, no written notes or printed ones"
WTH???
"lets get out of here" i said.
i was pissed off by then.
okay nvm, then we went back to level 5, study lounge to find seat again, NO SEATS.
then xav sae got one empty level, we can just anyhow sit, then we went up one level.
OKAY, then scared kena chased by guards then go down one level again, sit near study lounge.
then later kena chased.
then we found out OMG!
downstairs is whr the real library is!!
WOWNESS!
so we went in, and still no seats!!
wow.
then we went to children's corner, and then joan's necklace broke.
then okay , we decided to finally get out of tht NO BAGS POLICY placr then went to starbucks.
wow, we bot drinks and played truth or dare instead!
:D
greatness!
okay then later went to watch movie and it was freaking cold!
like wth sia, i was rolling up into a ball.
and xav kept laughing at me and joan, shivering.
then okay, went tamp to eat jack place and laughed like mad, just recapping wad i just said, awesome day.
then played truth or dare again and homed!
:D hehe
this is the "BEST" day ever!
WOW!
OH YA, and xav stepped on my foot 7 times!
ter's a remix version of today, anyone interested to noe, just ask joan, btw, her remix is abt xav having too many lives

2009-11-06T06:36:00.000-08:00

okay i reli dun get you .
keep scolding and scolding, like a 14 yr old kid doesnt know wad shes doing.
wth is yr freaking problem?
i go out is also becuz of you.
i dun want to keep listening to nonsensical stuff at home.
will go crazy one.
and sooner or later u see me at woodbridge.
scold somemore la.
so good at scolding, i see you can tahan until when.
i see how long can u scold.
i dun get wads so bad abt dancing and getting all so worked up abt it.
its wad i love.
wad i desire most since i was young.
you not only dun support and still want me to get away from dancing.
u ask me to think wad i talked back to you, asked me to reflect on myself.
yes, i did.
sometimes i reli am sorry.
but i ask you okay,
have u ever tot of me as your daughter?
or only someone to study so tht u can have a good life when you're old?
everything also sae for my own good, dun u get some of it in the future?
i dun recognise working earning lots of cash.
i only want to do smth i love .
u can stop me now, tell me off, bt im not giving in .

2009-11-06T05:49:00.000-08:00

woooooahhhhhhhhhh.
okay today had dance and was..
actually not bad..
haha..
tiring is DUH..
no need sae de..
and the graduation thing..
wow..
imagine myself graduating man..
and did a lil for encore..
and yeps thts it.
today was short, two hours plus only..
then went eastpoint with joan colleen jarrold..
and ate dinner there..
and played truth or dare, with colleen's itouch's funny questions...
haha..
then homed..
and here i am!!
woots!!
:D

2009-11-05T05:35:00.000-08:00

MY GREAT CLIQUE

THE COOLEST EVER NETBALLERS

THE PLAYGRD SCENE THE JUMP WE DID WHEN WE HAVE NTH TO DO

JUST THE FOUR OF US

NESSAGERL!!!

TIFFY!!!
FELICIA!!!BELLA POH!!!
JENN!!!

0kay .
i just listened to "officially missing you"

and the more i miss twosix...

i reli will miss the times we spend tgt man

and making noise at pizzahut, getting three warnings from librarians and finally chased out(we did it ourselves)

omgosh man.

twosix..

reli miss the times ..

esp the girls man..

like wadthehell.

whothehell started the streaming thing.

gokickyourbladdyass.

girls, stay strong and alwaes be happy no matter which class u go to.

its alwaes twosix behind you.

must alwaes noe tht.

SMILES:D

2009-11-03T07:32:00.000-08:00

hellos .
dance today was okay .
i hope i can do better sia .
i not flexible sia .
oh well .
it comes with a price .
did finale graduation today .
"i sing the body electric"
we're singing!!
lol..
gerrad damn not happy .
cuz we nv get out of comfort zone.
LOL..
nth much for today uh.
stil hope chalet will be great.
hope i can stay!
lol

2009-11-02T05:35:00.000-08:00

hellos
today got to know 3/4 class .
er .
okay uh, not tht bad .
i must say its quite funny.
but i still want my girls.
i reli miss them.
oh well, take things one at a time ba.
the class also not sae got no good ones .
LOL
twosix still better

2009-10-31T23:25:00.000-07:00

okay its over .
haha im glad its over .
everything is normal now :)
glad it is man, reli glad .
i dun have to lose a friend .
tmr have to go back school for sec 3 classes bonding and next year carnival sales to be done as a new class .
well, hope everything goes well and hope that my new class wud be as great as 2/6 .
i know 2/6 is rare but hey, miracles do happen .
i miss 2/6 man..
i reli hope everyone can make it to the chalet .
i reli hope so .

2009-10-30T22:15:00.000-07:00

omgosh man.
dance concert is so hectic and theres so much to do and so little time..
well, lets do our best and make it work:)
the dance concert theme is "we are golden".
its abt life..
how we live our life as a temasek freestyler and how we get to learn abt life..
its always up and down..
and sometimes u dun get wad u want or wish for..
we have a part that is about "hero within"
this is to tell everyone theres a hero inside you..
listen to "cant take that away from me" by mariah carey and u will know wad it means :)
one part is the mj tribute..
to thank him for contributing so much to the music world and being the king of pop, inspiring so many young talents..
i liked the hero within section becuz its reli telling abt life, how we live it and how to stand up again when we fall .
everyone haev a hero inside us..
its either we havent notice it or its hidden deep inside us..
ppl can sae wadeva they want abt you..
the hero inside you will noe wad to do or how to react to such ppl..
be wise not to fight them and be clever to throw it back at them..
its a complicated world we live in..
not everytime we will have our way.
tolerance is wad will bring us thru and being humble is the most impt thing to stay in .
we have alot of explore and many things to do.
so do not dwell on unhappy stuff and move on.
its wad i learnt from dance.
and wad it taught me.
i gain alot from dance and it reli changed me into a better person.
i hope tht many would understand the meaning of life and to dancers..
live your dance and dance your life.
wadeva tht doesnt kills you only makes you stronger..

2009-10-30T06:03:00.000-07:00

2/6,09.
i will never forget the times we spent tgt.
today in class msoh made me talk but i didnt noe wad to say .
2/6 has been the best class i've came across in my entire life.
last year 1/6 wasnt tht fun becuz not tht bonded and ter was a line between guys and girls.
well, now its diff!!
i miss 2/6 so much tht i reli dun want to change class even if its the so called streaming which i duno whothehell so SMART to start it .
the girls of 2/6..
very bonded...
you can see by the number of girls going out everytime as one..
even up to ten..
and we wud go to nessa or tiff or feli or anyone's hse to play ..
scream, shout or even jump hop or sleep or wadeva crap ..
we alwaes have fun tgt and i will nv forget tht ..
never ..
its reli..
a nice time ..
i will miss the times and they will alwaes be remembered..
the guys ..
tsk tsk tsk..
haha jkjk..
its a pleasure being yr CM..
although you are a bunch of wild monkeys and trouble makers..
but its a bunch tht i reli love to be fwens with ..
you guys have made my life a wonderful one, no sarcasm here..
and thanks for all the jokes and laughter tht u guys brought to the class..

malcolm, dingliang, joseph, jonathan, benjamin, izzuddin, caleb, barnabas, julian, and Emerson!!
thanks for being the jokers of the class..
esp emer, thanks for slapping my face when you're sitting next to me and thanks for alwaes hitting my elbow and wasting my correction tape!!
haha..
okay..
tht wasnt true..
but hey, thanks guys for making me laugh at jokes or any funny stuff.
like malcolm, your buglar walk..
ding, your OH DING fans..
jo, your yeayeayea and many YES ..
jon, your funny actions running to the front of the class, being IT manager
ben, being a worthy CM of 2/6
izz, being lame at times ..
caleb, being there for me previously and also joking ard in class.
Emer, for being so funny everytime and alwaes doing weird stuff..
haha..
you are a great fwen!!
and sometimes u are very wise in making life quotes haha..
and work hard on yr guitar!!
you will be a great guitarist:)
one note : you still owe me starbucks!! :)

THANKS GUYS!! THANKS FOR EVERYTHING!! OF CUZ, TO THOSE WHOSE NAMES ARE NOT MENTIONED TOO, THANKS FOR BEING A PART OF 2/6!!

jasmine ng!!
thanks for being a wonderful fwen..
you are alwaes the soft one tht alwaes is .. lets sae.. easy going ??
haha..
u alwaes help out when ter is help needed and alwaes the one to do stuff tht we find it very cute ..
haha

doloritas!!
thanks too.
for helping out whenever you can ..
reli happy tht u got into yr choice of streaming class..
:)

jane!!
you are alwaes the whining one ..
haha..
but hey ,, thts you:)
u are alwaesthe one tht wants justice to be done when something goes wrong and alwaes the one tht wud keep cursing on and on ..
haha..
its nice knowing you.
you're fun to be with :)

Melissa!!!!!
hey you malcolm's wife!!
haha!
dun kill me okay..
being nice here..
thanks babe!! for being ter for me and helping me sort things out when i have doubts.
you are a trusted fwen and i reli am glad tht i know you :)
you have been very fun and wild and sometimes too crazy tht i wud go insane too haha :)
thanks dear!! hope we wud stay fwens forever!! :)

Jennifer!!!!!
hey dear babe!
haha..
you're one kind soul man..
sometimes too kind tht ppl wud take advantage of it..
dear, msut know how to sae NO sometimes..
even when it may seem to be rude or harmful to the other party, but to save yrself, you msut learn when to be tough.
you have great fwens to help you, esp belle, definitely..
but they wont be with u all the time dear .
of cuz, jsut a phone call away..
haha :)

Annabelle Poh!!!!!!
you crazy korean fan!!
haha..
you're the craziest i've met so far..
haha.
i may meet more ppl like you, by then right, i want a grand funeral..
haha!!
jkjk..
hm..
last year i wasnt reli close to you..
this year many things happened..
and im reli glad tht i knew more of you..
you are one crazy hell of a girl..
you scream shout and wadeva..
alwaes the one to start cursing..
but i like you, becuz you're like me :)
haha
thanks for being ter for me when i needed help and thanks for all the stuff you did for me and caring for me when i reli wanted some concern..
and definitely million thanks to you for being such a good fwen!!
may we stay good fwens forever!! :)

FELICIA TAN !!
fedi !!
haha!!
hey dear!!
you're one kind hearted zhabor ..
everytime you're the one who will be the easy going one ..
alwaes giving answers as "anything"
haha..
you're very kind and caring ..
i rmb many times when i having headaches.
you wont hesitate to help me massage..
when i go yr hse and sounded like a frog=.=,,
you helped me get honey water from your maid to make my throat better :)
when i needed someone to talk to, you will alwaes be ter for me:)
thanks for the stuff u do for me.
and thanks for being my sister baby!!
i love you!!

TIFFANY CHUA!!!!!!
hey u diamond!!
youre a freaking joker out of us four..
alwaes the one tht makes us laugh and alwaes the jovial girl, influencing me to be one too.
you're alwaes ard when i needed some laughter ..
haha..
and definitely alwaes being ter for me..
you give me great advices when i asked for some and i reli hope to be fwens with you forever :)
you're a great sister!!
i rmb once when i was reli down and i cudnt sae y i was..
but you still willin to give a listening ear to hear my troubles and clear my thoughts..
and letting me cursed!!
haha..
sorry if i hurt you when i was at the top of my anger ..
it wasnt on purpose dear!!
you noe i still love you!!:)

VANESSA TAN HUI QI!!!!!!!!!!!!
js's wifey!!
nessagerl!!
monkey!!
bamboo stick!!
you got alot of names uh..
hey you sugar!!!
haha!!
dear, thanks for being there when i needed you..
when ppl are making fun of me, you wouldnt go too far and i reli appriate for you doing tht..
and sometimes when i ask for smth..
ppl wont reply me..
but you will alwaes be the one to whisper it to my ear and tell me wad you all talking abt ..
you nv left me out ..
last year, the case of the blog..
left me reli alone and left out , like i wasnt worth it ..
but when it was cleared,, and it wasnt my fault..
i reli felt happy..
and i hugged you like i nv hugged anyone b4..
i reli was glad tht it was clear,, tht i wasnt going to lose 3 great fwens..
you can read my mind easily,, knowing wad im thinking .
aft tht incident,
you said i've changed.
into like.. in my own world kinda thing..
you're right.
i was..
i felt it too.
but i just didnt sae it..
i reli appreciate yr concern..
and reli million thanks for doing so much for me..
although not same class next year , but dear dear girl!!
you will alwaes remain as my bestie no matter wad.
you have my word..
i promise you dear..
come to me if you have troubles..
or if any guy wants to do anything..
come to me dear!! :)
haha..
thanks for everything , i love you to hell!! :)

THANKS GIRLS!! YOU BABES HAVE MADE MY LFIE A WONDERFUL ONE IN 2/6 AND I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET THE TIMES WE HAVE TGT!!

twosixrockers!!!
we will alwaes be united as one, forever, and alwaes being with each other in times of need.
as i said, in times of need, dun be shy to come to me, i will alwaes help you out ..
only a phone call away, no matter who are you..
once a twosixrocker, always a twosixrocker..
we share the pain as a class.
and also the happiness even when we're separated..
TWOSIXROCKERS FOREVER!!

2009-10-29T05:57:00.001-07:00

today class was boring to me.
aft school had meeting.
but it wasnt meeting.
it was to get the stuff for clean up.
tmr will be the last day where 2/6,09 spends tgt in school as a class.
best sec 2 class being torn apart, hurts alot but i blvie we will alwaes stay as one.
this is y we are twosixrockers!!
alot of stuff to do tmr.
i hope i can be on task.
and hope tht class chalet will be good.
thts the only thing i look forward to.
aft school, went to find belle jenn feli at BFC.
belle feli went my hse next aft renting a horror show ard mel's house.
thanks mel for coming down:)
jenn had to go home cuz her sis didnt bring the keys.
so we "watched".
i was practically sleeping until the phone rang and shook me.
belle and feli liked it cuz its korean.
aft the show, they practically turned my room upside down.
esp belle.
screaming and shouting and saying...
"OMG! HE IS SO HANDSOME!!"
LOL ANNABELLE.
haha.
anyway, the day ended with a fight with my mum when she scolded me for saying three non-vulglar chi words.
LOL.
okay .
hope tmr will be a good day :)

2009-10-28T06:10:00.001-07:00

class chalet like quite screwed sia.
i hope alot of ppl will be able to make it.
i must start confirming details le.
also need class to cooperate contributing money .

2009-10-27T06:26:00.000-07:00

explain wad u tell me.
i dun even see a need to do so.
i said alrdy.
u dun have to noe everything .
becuz in the end the result will still be the same.
nth will change.
no point knowing .
let go means let go.
no hows.
no whys.
u love someone u let go .
thts wad i learnt from my friend .

2009-10-27T05:00:00.000-07:00

dance is reli tiring..
i need to train my stamina sia..
im like half dead aft warm up and 3/4 dead aft "bad" and totally dead aft auditions..
my knee aint getting any better..
but im sure i rather push myself ..
aft dance went to eat at kfc..
joan injuried her shoulder blade..
she's damn poor thing..
get well soon dear .

everything im doing is wrong..
mayb thts y my life just suck..
sorry dear..
i didnt noe tht wud hurt you or made u feel smth tht u dun want to feel..
i'll just..
i know what to do..
im sorry..
i wont be close ..
dun worry..

2009-10-26T04:39:00.000-07:00

why am i doing this to myself?
tht fall..
was it on purpose?
my joint reli hurts.
there's dance tmr.
and confirm intensive .
oh well.
bear with the pain..

wads everything?
u dun have to know.
wads the point of knowing?
right, so tht u noe wads wrong and so tht u can try to make it work again.
no point at all.
no chance anymore.
u dun have to break ties with her.
me and you.
no more chances.
i have to make it clear.
its not abt u giving up..
of cuz dun give up . must persevere with wad u do.
but now..
its not abt tht .
its abt letting it go..
let it go ..
u said its impossible.
well, no one blives tht man can fly in the first place.
thts y airplanes are invented.
search for the right thing.
i noe u want things to go back to normal b/w u and me.
but im sorry.
i reli think its the end .
u noe me well enough .
i wont change my mind abt it .

2009-10-25T08:13:00.000-07:00

its not tht i want it
i didnt expected it to come
sorry tht it hurt so many
but im reli trying my best
stop forcing me also
i dun want to hurt anyone
its not gonna work
sorry tht i hurt my fwens
im reli sorry..
thanks for staying by my side
thanks for being such good fwens

2009-10-23T05:59:00.000-07:00

I CHOSE ECONOMICS.
people say im stupid for choosing econs.
but being top doesnt means triple.
i know i am taking a risk.
it wud be one i ever made and i know i wont regret making this risk.
i just hope i wont regret taking this combi.
it will be good rite?
well, 2/6 wud help me make it the best for me .
2/6, this is our last year tgt.
it definitely doesnt mean we're separated.
we're so bonded tht i can sae tht im proud of it.
we're a bunch of twosixrockers tht doesnt like being judged.
when ppl get bullied, we do it for fun.
but when ppl offend us,
they reli get it.
we're a group of fun people.
also a group of not-to-mess-with peeps.
once a twosixrockers 09...
always a twosixrockers 09...
we're a strong bunch.
we will alwaes be.
this is why we are twosixrockers.
everyone play a part.
we have arguments b4.
but thts wad made us grew closer and we know each other better.
i reli love 2/6 .09.
i will nv forget the times we have tgt.
they are definitely wont be forgotten.
memories are meant to be rmbed and smiled at when u think of them.
okay lets not get emotional.
i'll make an emotional post next time! haha!

sorry it started.
sorry it ended.
take it as my fault.
im sorry.
but i cant let it affect me anymore.
i cant keep taking it in.
im sorry.